So I went to a Christian Writers’ Meet-Up on Saturday 13, October, 2018. It was really good to get in among other creatives who also have a passion for God. It was a wonderful experience… but this post isn’t about that experience, well not about the totality of that experience anyway.
Y’all… I was chastised.
And I deserved it.
Lemme back track. So at the end of the sessions, there were some tokens given out. We had to dip and then call out the number we had. The tokens were given based on whichever number we pulled out. There were books, beverages and pieces of advice (through Bible verses or quotations).
First of all, when I pulled out my slip of paper, I was convinced that I didn’t have a number. As far as I knew, I had the capital letter L. And I couldn’t figure out why I was the only one with a letter… until I was telling my friend about and took another look.
It was, in fact, the number 7.
I be telling y’all that I’m not that bright. I don’t know why no one believes that.
Anyway, my token was a piece of advice that came from Psalm 46:10.
Be still and know that I am God…
That was it; just the first half of the verse.
It didn’t hit me at first, but then it came in like a ton of bricks.
God was really talking to me and He was not pleased and I felt ashamed.
Okay the backstory to my shame is that I recently applied to a program. The vetting process is rather long and tedious as it’s a worldwide program. There are various steps to get through but only those who have been chosen to move on to the next step will be notified. I got through the first step and I’ve yet to hear back. Soooo, you know what that means? I’ve taken to just randomly checking in on the site in case they sent the notification through the account there rather than through my email. And to be very honest (with you and myself) I’ve gotten a bit antsy about it.
God saw it and He rightly had something to say.
And lemme interject and say here that chastening and rebuke is necessary. Paul told us so in Proverbs 3:11-12.
My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, nor detest His correction; For whom the Lord loves He corrects, Just as a father the son in whom he delights.
And of course, after proper punishment, it would be remiss of me not to reflect on things. Having done so, this is what I got.
Stillness is important to God.
God needs us to be still because it is only when we are still that we can really hear Him and see Him.
My mind was really all over the place, which inevitably led me to worry a bit, which inevitably led me to be somewhat anxious, which inevitably led me to shift my focus away from the omniscience and omnipotence of God. I started questioning His plan and His timing. My feelings and wants began to cloud my vision. It became about what I want instead of what God wants.
I mean, it is entirely possible that God just wants me to experience the application process and not being chosen in order to teach me acceptance, grace in the face of failure or even patience. I don’t know, but I wasn’t settling into His steps. I was running ahead.
I had to be still.
Being still does not mean that we shut down.
It is understanding that we have a God who is organizing things on our behalf. Sometimes we might unwittingly feel like we have to help things along. And, being nothing but mere humans, our actions don’t really count for much when compared to an omnipotent God.
It is a fact, there is only so much we can do. And in some cases, all we really need to do, is stand back and observe God in action. Just like the Israelites had to do in Exodus 14: 13-14.
And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will shew to you to day: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen to day, ye shall see them again no more for ever. The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.
Being still is not easy. It commands us to trust in God and in His plans for us… which is technically what we’re supposed to be doing anyway, as a wise man said in Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
We still have to actively seek Him.
Trust me, I’m still feeling the sting of that heavenly rebuke but I know it’s for my good. Possibly your good as well.
It’s not easy and it goes against everything the ‘go get it’ tone of the world has to offer, but it’s the best thing was can do.
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